working on a weekend shift

**Yes Faebook is part of the job..!!..lol

It's wet Saturday night - Sunday early morn should I say, I am still stuck in the office working on my last shift for the week. I have been having troubles sleeping these past few days and I certainly look forward to an all-sleep weekend - I mean Rest day.

I have so many thing that I need to get done by the days off work and yet I could not figure out which ones I should consider prioritising- hopeful I'd be able to figure it out soon though - after getting an 8 hours sleep after work.

The thing I like about working in a small office is the fact the management does not - or care less about the dress code so long as you get your chores and job done efficiently. And boy you would love to be working on a weekend shift - having mentioned the latter.

I came in - late - for work today wearing a casual checkerred short pants, blue shirt and white flip-flops and nobody cared.

The ME in 2011..

I have to say that I owe this site a lot as I have not been blogging.

Anyways, here’s a new photo of my taken just last week as a matter of fact. Yeah, I know I look bigger and that really the main idea anyway..hahaha.g for quite a while being busy and all – love-life and everything else. As am writing this my recollection of the date of my last entry was bask in 2009 – give or take a few months – as I say I have been quite busy doing everything else...lol

you can just smell your skin burning..

Just early this month - August- I had few facial warts removed. To even out my skin tone. As far back in college, I can already remember having those facial warts.

They were barely visible but if i wanted to be in a cover of a magazine, they will all have to go, and I can't purely rely on Photoshop to do that job. I still want my face to be smooth, just the way it was in high school.

If it were not for those cosmetics they've been putting on my face using a sponge used on everybody else's face, I would have never gotten those to begin with.

I wanted my dermatologist Dra. Bernad (CRB Derm Clinic, SM City Cebu NorthWing) to do the job, but she just charges too much for the procedure. Why would I possibly pay that much when I can have the same procedure done at half the cost?..

So as they were, I went to Forever Flawless (SM City Cebu NorthWing), and had them do the cautery procedure instead. I was with a friend and officemate John Mark Bibar a.k.a "Barbi".

The Cautery Procedure takes about an hour and a half in my case. The warts that I had removed were not really big, they were really tiny as a matter of fact- barely visible from afar. Yet they need to be removed. There were a lot of them on my face.

They had me lie down on that contoured-caushioned bedlike platform, however and whatever theyre called. They had to put anaesthetic cream on my face, to numb the skin, because it would definitely hurt a lot without them. After putting the cream and setting the cream on my face, they had it covered with plastic wrap- those that we'd use in the kitchen to cover left-overs- for an hour.

After an hour on that bed, you can surely feel your face all numbed, or should I say, I couldnt feel my face anymore..hehe Anyways. During the actual burning of the warts, you can just smell your skin burning right in front of your face. I swear, I can still even remember the smell. And there were areas on my face that the anaesthetic did not have an effect on, those area really hurt like hell. It's the burning sensation would get with little tickling and stinging feel to it. And it sounds funny too. Like those noise you hear when welding metal, thats the same noise- the tiny version of that noise .

After the procedure you're not supposed to wet your face for at least 24 hours. You are not to rub the scabs, you'll need to let them fall off in 4 to 5 days. You are not to go out when the sun is at its hottest and if you do you'll need to put on some sunblock every 2 hour. And of course you'll need to put on the Post-Cautery cream they had you purhcase from them. Neat ehh?..!.

Of course there's nothing else I can do but to comply, otherwise they'll leave nasty dark scars that may take months to get rid off. Thats not even an option. 100% compliance kaayu..

then and now.

I dug out some of the old photos I had uploaded in several locations on the web. I just thought it would be a fun. You know, comparing myself then and now.

I couldn’t stop laughing at my old photos, dreaded if you ask me. I guess because I have forgotten how thin I was back then. I mean I have haven’t inched that much but you can really see the difference at least. You can see two inches more on my biceps. And a lot on chest and shoulders. I can't even begin to imagine how I started with the workout that I have been doing, getting me this far.

My decision to take working out seriously was because of only person. The one person who influenced me and motivated me so much. One that I thought would be proud of what i would be able to achieve with the workout.

I guess it would start and end with Mark Anthony. You may ask why and who?. He WAS a good friend of mine, my ex-boyfriend nonetheless, who pictures you may be able to find in my private photos (friendster.com account).

Mark’s been working out for years already. And have developed from no less than how I am back then to a totally buffed hunk. And have made a little reputation out of it. He’s made a mark in Bikini competitions. I fell in love with the idea and thought of having a ripped and well defined muscles. Let's face it, if you're not gifted with good looks, you better be good at something else to make yourself marketable, even just your brains wont sometimes work.

I may not be handsome, but I were to consider getting myself all buffed up, I'd givfe a pretty good fight a looking good. hehe..

Bottom line is, I wanted to equal Mark's figure after a year I told him. He did not make any comment on that but I’m pretty sure at he back of his mind he went; “Yeah, right! Top the two years of heavy lifting I’ve done so far.”Heheh… No. I just felt uncomfortable being around him public because, we'd always get a stare, I mean he's always get the stare of people.

Mark has a real good structure though. I heard from a friend - a PT - once said that a persons muscle growth also have everything to do with his bone structure. Meaning if you’re a person with thin bone structure, you’re less likely to grow bulky muscles, and so on. And those with big bone structure are likely to get big bulky muscles with workout. But with modern science almost everything is posible already.

I hope it’s ok if I quote a URL I read about it from a website.

BodyBuilding.com . all credits go to the author of the site. There describes the different bone structures from a body builder’s point of view.

Anyways, as I was saying, I had a good laugh at the old photos I found, just before I started lifting dumbbells , plates and bars. When I first started I could barely do 16 reps of 30 pound plates

how my O.C addiction begun..

This entry was posted on Tuesday, April 17th, 2007 at 9:38 pm

When I was in, living with CJ (Christopher John Alforque) in Banawa- Mid quarter of last year- were my first few months living independently. I love the independence and what it offered. With it, I am able to stay out late whenever I want to, stay out wherever I wanted to or be with people whoever I want to.

I surely loved it, no curfews, no rules. I was alone. I was alone on my own, in a sense that I wasnt living with my mom and sister anymore. I have CJ, and Ronah who shared the house with.

It was practically CJ’s home. I guess call it boredom, so he wanted me to live with him. I like CJ’s company, so it was not hard to come up with the decision.

I work on different shifts that the two. I work on a 10pm to 7pm shift they, on the other hand are on a 5am to 2 pm. So when I am in the office thy’re at home, sleeping or doing god-knows what or watching TV. And while I am at home sleeping they’re at the office working.

Cj has a wide range of DVD title collections. I have watched most of them, those that I felt are interesting. Among the DVD’s, “The O.C” was one I had a real interest with. I loved the the characters. The OC is actually a Series by FOX TV. I am not sure though if it had been shown here in the Philippines but I am sure it’s a really great series.I have only seen the second season-

unfortunately its the only season CJ had. But when I moved back in Danao, I sure bought

my own copies of the DVD’s. I now have all four seasons. The thing though, is the fourth season only has 4 episodes. Apparently most more than half of season is missing.

I’ve watched the episode over and over, yet it still as if I have only seen it once. This is by far the only series that I have fixated my emotions into. It made me happy, smile, angry, disgusted and even depressed most of the time. It’s the best series there ever was. I swear, youve never really seen drama, until you see The O.C.

repost: dull.. dreadful..as always…

April 25th, 2007 at 12:58 am:

In as far as i can remember, it's been a family tradition never to celebrate birthdays, something like that. On the 23rd I stayed up late watching Television. I was also waiting for the first few people who would send out my first birthday greeting. I received a short message from Lai. She’s the beautiful girlfriend of my cousin Martin.

I was upset, the first greeting I have received came from somebody who I never had laid my eyes on and never even had a personal conversation with. It was really belittling. I was amazed at how insignificant I am to -the people (*sigh*)- my so called "friends". It was really depressing, but nevertheless I felt better, with the fact that at least somebody threw in a greeting.

A little later after Lai sent the message, I got another one from my really great friend, officemate and confidante, Haidee. Haidee and I have become really good friends- ever since we transferred to Teletech from PeopleSupport. We were also in the same team back in PS. Her greeting me, felt a lot better. Finally someone who really knows me remembered. I was kind of anticipated her greeting.

I spent the rest of the night rallying text messages with Lai, at the moment she was the only one I know, keeping me sane. Then a few minutes there after, my cousin Martin also threw in his greeting- something i really appreciated.

Martin and I have only met once, and it has been ten years since we met each other. It was at my grandfather’s funeral. I remember him being a really talkative kid, but taking it from his girl’s description, i guess he’s changed. Matured.

I slept only after a few messages with the two lovebirds- which i felt awful about.the following morning it was already the 24th. I got a message again from Lai a few minutes after 12 am, then from Haidee again when I checked my phone 9 in the morning. Samsuden also have not forgotten. Plus a bunch meat-heads from everywhere, old acquaintances, officemates and such.

I got all the greetings and such, that I am thankful for, but it didn’t take away the fact that It was still a dull day, as it has always been in the past.

TODAY:

This Year however was different. It was the second birthday I had that I actually had a job the first was last year, with the same company (Convergys).

I had greetings from all over the place, from Lina of Jobstreet.com and the the rest of the staff, my friends, officemate and people who have not seen and met me yet. And I received the most expensive birthday gift, and from a person whom I have not known a long time and he's not even from this country. He gave me a BlackBerry Storm. He flew all the way from Dubai to deliver the gift and celebrate.. Isn't that wonderful for a friend to something that big for somebody you hardly know. He's Joseph a.k.a in real life as Youssef El Koury. I will never forget his generousity and kindness.. Thanks Joseph.

just to keep my sanity afloat..

It has been really quite a while since I have sat down on my ass and plowed through pages and pages of a good book.

I love reading books, but my liking for reading is - i admit- limited to only those materials that I like, not to mention authors of my elective.

The last book I have read was The Fatherland. I did not like the way the story was laid out. I like those that are brilliantly laid out; then again I would not really how the story is laid out if I did not read through the book, wouldn’t I?.

Prior to the The Fatherland, the last book that I have read that I really liked was of Dan Brown. The Vinci Code. Probably the same reasons why other people loved the book, why I loved it.

I have always admired John Grisham’s work. I hope there are people out there who are kind enough to lend me a book by Grisham. The Client, The Rainmaker, The Runaway Jury, The Partner, The Firm were among of his books that I have read already- and really loved.

I have heard good reviews about Brown’s Angels and Demons, so I am kind of on the look out for people who has a copy so I can borrow it.

Just over not a year ago, I have gotten my interest on the Harry potter series, its not really the type of books that I would prefer reading but for the love of the movie series I read the last two installments.. The Half-Blood Prince and the Deathhly Hallows.

The two materials were nicely written, I can only imagine the rest of the books that I have not gotten my worm on. But then again since I already saw the movie, it be a waste if went back to the previous books when I already know where its going.. heheh

Moreover. Another past time was watching the series on dvd my favorite was "THE O.C".. I so loved that series. I'd watch it over and over and over again on DVD. I love their little family drama, the lives of the rich anf famous and the not so famous.

to a lost love.. A month of insignificance..

Below is a blog I posted more than two years ago. Original Post can be read and found on my friendster.com account, just under the blog section.

This entry was written when I was so mad over something.... Just Reposting this..

If there is anything in this world that I am not good at- and will never be good at- is begging. We all have our own pinciple that we all live by, this is mine. If I can help it, I refuse to ask for any help form any body. Needless to say I did not want to be indebted to anyone under any circumstances. I may ask you once or twice, but hell, I am, not going to sink that low to asking you to do something I wanted done. If you do not want to do it, fine, but know that I will hold that on you.

I will let you have your way. It’s bad enough that I only come second in the list of your priorities, I will definitely not sell my dignity shorter than I can bargain for.

Countless times I have requested to have stuff stricken off the dossier. I am not sure I am even of any importance to you, or if what I say even matters to you at all. Apparently, you insist of keeping the things I wanted removed, despite my best effort of having you remove them in the least demanding manner.

An important day went on and passed, yet I have not heard anything from you. Not even a "hello". I am not even sure if you already did the thing that we verbally agreed on the last time we spoke.

I’m sorry but looking at them still being there, makes me feel so insignificant. Feel free to counter, however their continued existence there is not showing otherwise.

I did things you asked me to do because, thats how important your feelings and opinions are to me. I’d give you my life if you wanted me to.

Just because we do not agree on something, it does not mean I wanted you off. I simply wanted you to prove that I have a meaning, my opinion have a meaning to you. It’s just the damn pictures that I wanted stricken off. If you really take pride of those photos being inside his car, then perhaps I should just let you keep then on, and show myself out of this thing we got into. Because, you I can’t live with that.

You said I should not worry myself about how you are with this guy, but how can I do that when you yourself are giving me reason to the contrary. How many times have you been online since Wednesday evening? how many messages have I sent you? How many replies have received? None.

Now, tell me I should not worry..

insecurity and paralyzing self doubt.

If were given the chance to redo and change my life, I would definitely get myself a better father than the one I have or the lack thereof. Life was definitely hard growing up without a father and a brother. All I had- growing up- were my two sisters and my cousin Glassy- not that I am complaining- I just wondered how my life would have been if I had my father and brother with me.

For the record, I have a borhter. But my brother is one who I never had the opportunity to grow up with. He was thrown into the east, in Leyte, to my to my Father’s folks’ care. I could not really remember why but, yeah, he was raised there, away from us. So, it was just really me, my mom and my two sis.

Although I knew who my fahter was, his father, mother and sibblings were, the life and who he really is remained a mystery to me, and I guess always will be. Come to think of it I probably have spent more time being with his family than I have spent with him.

Many of my friends have asked where my dad was and is. I know for a fact that after he left -well, my mom actually kicked him out- he had another family elsewhere. And his location was smoenthing we were raised not to even bother knowing. After all it was entirely my mom’s hard work that got us to where we are.

The last time I saw him was way back in 2001, I think. I stopped counting the years that I have not seen him. People often asked of his whereabouts, yet I have not really given them a straight answer or any at times. He left when I was just four and we never heard a word form him again. I have seen nothing of my father, I did not even know what he looked like anymore. Until in 1994 he just showed up in my school, while I was in class, he came looking for me at the principal’s office.

We used to wonder were he is then. But now we know where he is where he would be staying for a long period of time. In prison.

In 2000 we heard from a relative that he was arrested for the murder of one councilor somewhere in the north. We did not care about him then and were not even reconsidering. But charges were merely speculation. He may be the worse father any children could ever have, but I dont believe he did it. He’s a coward, for goodness sake. He did not even have the nerve to face my mom after being in a fight with my mom, all the more reason for us to believe that he would have the guts to murder anybody. However the case would turn out, that’s not going to change anything, at all.

I already lost my father the moment he walked out of our lives when I was four. Mine is only respect for him as the person who got me into this life of insecurity and paralyzing self doubt.

I have not been talking about my father’s whereabout because I dont want to have anything to do with him anymore. We certainly don’t need a father anymore than my mom needs a husband.

offers I have been wanting to say yes to...

Since a years ago I have been receiving several invtitations for photoshoots from photographers in the metro and those even based in Manila.

These are offers I have been wanting to say yes to, but I don tfeel confident to say yes to them yet.

I dont know, I am just not confindent to pose in front of a camera professionally.

Reasons being, One, because I still need to work on major muscle groups that I know they would

likely ask me to flaunt on lense.

I mean am not good looking, the only reason I can think of why they'd want to be in their shoot is the body that I have been working on for over a year.

I know a lot of people that are posing for them already but looking at the photos, only a few them I can honestly say that are worth the shot. Some have both the face and the body to flaunt. Some just have the face, but felt confident showing off their flabs and bulgin luggages. I have nothing against that, its

their shame anyways.

I on the on other hands, since its always been my body thats the main attraction, I'd wanna make sure that its ready for it. Unless I feel confident in flaunting them already, I'm not gonna pose for any lense but my own's..heheh

That's what self timers are for.. wahah..

my Blackberry storm..with slugs..

A friend of mine got me this phone as a birthday present.

The phone is great. I love the design. The phone does not feel all-plastic, as a matter of fact its quite heavy compared to the iPhone 3G. But little did I know that I'd be wishing he'd gotten me the iPhone after all.

Yes. The phone is great, if you re just in the advent of using a mobile phone..!!

These are the minus points I noticed while using the phone. First the Sluggish response to tapping. It's really slow, for crying out loud.!. Second, I can' get any memory card to be recognized. I'm an gadget geek, but using this phone and trying to get it to work as it should made look like an idiot. Third, the message tone. No matter how loud you set it to yell at you when you get a message, it just fails so miserably. Sometimes you'd hear it, but most of the time you wont. After a week of using and trying to get it to work and convince myself that its a great phone, I just gave up. Multimedia, is really important to me, I need to be able to take photos. play music and record audio with the phone.

For the it not being able to recognize an mmc card, that's a major setback. I'm not sure if it was factory defect or what. I thought it may just be the unit that's defective, so I went online to read in reviews about the Storm. Guess what?.. I'm so not alone. So I sold it.

Sa walay pag duha-duha, ako jud baligya.. wehehe.. I sold it and got myself an Nokia N82.. Now that's a great phone. with a 5mpx camera with Xenon flash and carl zeiss optics, what more could I ask for?.

I've grown to love coffee and coffee shops.

There a few coffee shops I could name and say that I like to hang out at and have a cup or two.

I had hot chocolate and their moist chocolate cake. The iced Frop, am not sure what its called..hehe. This was on MOCHA BLENDS, SYKRISE Blg, Asiatown I.T Park Lahug Cebu.

My liking for coffe and being in coffee shops started only when I started working in call center or should I say, when I started working. hehe.. Straight out of college I started working for SYKES ASIA in cebu.

I wasn't always a sociable person, am a self proclaimed anti-social. I dont want to be where the crowd is. But when youre youre working with a team however, you'll have to differ from how you were before. So, I started to mingle with people in the team.

We'd arrange going to Pubs and clubs to drink and party, watch movies, and go out of town whenever possible.

Going back.. I personally like Bo's Coffee Club, the one in Ayala Center Cebu, the one that was used to be located at the Entertainment Center..

Am not really a coffe addict, I just go there becuase most of the people I work with drinks coffee and it'd feel weird if they ordered and I didn't, wouldn't it?. If you stayed there for hours and all you'd ever sip is a glass of water, that'd difinitely feel off..wahaheheh..

I started liking starbuck coffees, because of their Signature hot Chocolate. I just simply love chocolate.. Such a sucker for their signature hot chocolate, no kidding..

a great boss and a good friend

In this photo are Stephen Slade, Convergys Cebu, Asiatown I.T Park Cebu, Site director and Simon Sinco.

It was a fun day (Convergys Summer Party) at the Maribago BlueWaters, Lapu-Lapu City Cebu.

I have several shots of Stephen but none of them were facing the camera, this is the only one i could find thats colsest.. Hahaha..

He's a real friendly person , a great boss and a good friend. I will surely miss him.. In the two years of stay in Convergys, all the time he sees a familiar face he'd never fail to smile and greet them. And gosh he's very generous. I cant imagine how many times he's treated us for pizzas and dinner at his own expense.. Diners were just in the pantry, but it's the thought that counts, as they say.. wahaha..

I miss my CVG life, it was fun while it lasted. The best employers / call center, if you ask me..

my photo signiture..

From this day forward this will by my digital signature, and this will appear on my projects and or photographs.

some of the beautiful faces

Here's what I consider a finished product.. got tired.of doing

the photo..hehehe.. the wedding photo of Rose Eden Olis.. Thats it, am not fully satisfied with the results though but thats the best I can come up with given this was taken originally with only a 4.0 megapixel digital camera.

Photos above are photos of Jep-jep, thats what people call her at work.. The shot was take during our Convergys Summer Party [ Fire and Water ]. May 24, 2009..

She's one of the beautiful faces I've taken photos of the entire day, and this is the only shot I took of her. And she did not fail to give me a good one.. A really pretty face, if you ask me, really photogenic.

Ms. Donabell Regalado

rose eden's wedding pic.

been giving this photo some makeovers. I have had a lot of finishes to this photo, this picture specifically.

This finish was done with LightRoom.

The original photo had a lot of red and orange colors going on bcause of the gold, orange wedding motiff.

What I wanted to do was, remove if not reduce the color intensity in the photo and this is what I came up with. I'm still going to work on this until I'm able to come up with the best finish for this photo.

This is how the photo use to look like.

Playing around with Adobe..

In the past few months, I have turned my attention on Adobe PhotoShop and Adobe Lightroom.

I have been acquainted with Photoshop in the past- as in like back in college. I used it for creating graphics for the Websites and pages I created back then.

Adobe LightRoom however is something new to me, I just had it installed the other day, it has really great features. Nothing the Adobe Photoshop couldn't do though. The only thing is, LightRoom is designed to manipulate lighting's in your photos. Its dedicated to that purpose, and it really does produce great photograph lighting finish.

detailing everything in future blogs

Let me begin by saying, pasensya sa spelling and grammar. My hands are faster than my brain..hehe.. I cant meticulously proof every single blog I post here. Hence, typos may be noticed.. But as we say in bisaya, "Kibir".. I didn't ask you to be here anyways.. hehe.. seriously, please excuse the typos and grammatical error you may encounter hereon. Thanks.. !! WabYu..!!

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It has definitely been a while since the last time I've done blogging on an independent blog site like blogger.com. I don't Even know what happened to the account I have created over four years ago. As you can it has really been a while.

My blog after that were all all limited to only within my personal profile, in a social networking site, Friendster.com- which is equally fun to do.

Anyways. The last entry I did for blog spot was my entry to the local music scene here in Cebu, as solo performer / Singer.

Unfortunately to say, I don't do shows anymore, and quite honestly, I don't even sing as often as I did anymore. I have been quite busy, really busy lately, with work.

I sure miss writing/blogging. I tried to to write a book back then, finished half of the chapters but my hard drive crashed.. I know, right?. just my luck I say to myself.. But it alright though.

At least I still get to write.

Moreover. The thing that I really want to do is technical writing. I have always love technical writing as it devoid personalization, pleasantries and such. If there's a profession out there that I'd want to be doing for the rest of my employment career, except from performing, I'd want to be a Writer / journalist if you please.

For over a year now, my new past time has been working out in the gym. Weight training.

I will be detailing everything in future blogs, I promise. For now. I wanna welcome you all to my personal online journal.

I write whenever I want, and whatever I want.

If there are error in details, facts , name of people, involved I reserve the right to make the corrections, whenever and however I want to.. After all , its not like you can do anything about it anyways.. Cheers..!!